Healing my brokenness

I haven't posted in a while, but I've still been putting my broken pieces back together. In addition to rebuilding my marriage with God as the third strand I've been including God in every aspect of my life! Building an intimate relationship with God has been amazing. I've wanted to get baptized since I was a teenager, but I've always been afraid to go through with it. Back in April of this year I finally went through with it and then I abruptly stopped going to church. There was no real reason behind it; just excuses I used to rationalize my failure to commit to attending church regularly. Thankfully that changed in August when I made a vow to God to not only attend church regularly, but to attend Bible Study and study the Bible at home daily. One of the first thing I learned when I started going back to church was that being baptized invited The Holy Spirit to come into my life as my comforter! Having the comfort of The Holy Spirit makes getting through difficult ...

On today and many other days I thank God for my children and my ability to put their needs before my feelings! Struggling with depression is hard and I can honestly understand why some people feel that suicide is the best treatment, but no matter how hopeless I feel I push through for my children. I know how I am feeling is temporary, but the pain that is felt from losing your mom is permanent and I never want to put that pain on my children. To all the mothers out here struggling with depression and other mental illnesses know that your kids need you. Even at your worst you're still their superwoman!

Many of you know I have been on my health and fitness journey for almost 10 years now. For the first 7 years of my journey I tried every diet out there. I would lose a little weight and gain double that amount back. Needless to say by 2016 my life was controlled by whatever number was on the scale. That is when I decided it was time to stop dieting and start making lifestyle changes. This morning when I weighed myself I was overcome with emotions because I honestly don't care what the scale reads anymore. Here's the post I shared on my health and fitness IG page: When you're fighting to lose weight this number right here can define how your day, week, or month will go IF YOU LET IT!  Living a healthy lifestyle is not about that number at all. It's about how you feel each day. How your clothes fit. What progress you've made. As your body changes you will see the number on the scale fluctuate based on what you eat, what you drink, your hormones, the time of day,...