Healing my brokenness

"I'm done", "It's over", "I can't do this anymore", and "I give up" are all phrases that I've said and/or heard a few times over the past thirteen years. To be honest with you guys some of those words were spoken within the past month, but when you vow to be with someone forever you have to know that there will be bad times.  Especially when you get married before really getting to know one another. For those of you that don't know my husband and myself chose to get married after only nine months of knowing one another at the young ages of 26 and 21 years old. I was already a single mother of a one year old and my husband was coming out of a divorce so the odds were stacked against us to say the least. We have dealt with financial issues, insecurities, infidelities, health issues, family issues, and a variety of other issues over the years, but we always manage to come out of things together fighting for our marriage and ho...

After almost 13 years of marriage I found myself living the life of a single mother to three children about three weeks ago. That first week was hard because not only did I have my children to care for I also take care of my 74 year old immobile grandmother who goes to dialysis three times a week. I was an emotional wreck...my feelings ranged from anger, anxiety, bitterness, happiness, and depression, but I remained strong for the people depending on me! Things were hectic in my household to say the least, but we all survived and my kids were ready for their first day of school the following Monday! My husband was over the road, my marriage was in the worst place it's ever been, and I was ready to completely let go, but God starting talking to me and my vows kept going through my head so I decided that if my husband was willing to put God first than maybe our marriage could in fact be saved. Now we have a ways to go, but we're taking things one day at a time!