I May Bend But...

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I AM STRONG
I AM A LOVER

I AM A NURTURER
I AM A FIGHTER

I AM LIFE
I AM LOVE

I FALL SHORT AT TIMES
I MAKE MISTAKES

I WILL FAIL AT TIMES
I WILL NOT QUIT

I WILL BEND BUT...
I WILL NOT BREAK!

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